Wednesday 29 September 2010

Oh god

Something just happened and-- and just trying to write this down makes me feel it all over again... I don't want to remember it, but I have to record this.

Well I... was in my room and I went to my windows in order to close the blinds and cover them with the curtains. When I did so I happened to look out the window and he stood there, the faceless man.
He was so tall, it seemed like he had grown since I saw him in the library. He stood by a tree, and for a moment there I thought that he WAS the tree. Somehow, he blended in really well with it. Even though he was still wearing his regular black suit.

I don't know. It's just a hallucination. I looked away as quickly as I could - he was staring (but how? He have no eyes) directly at me as if he was thinking about something, like he had some... intention, but of course that's not possible - and I made it so that the curtains covered the windows completely, so that nothing outside would be able to look in. But I'm on the second floor, so who could look in? That man, probably.

But it isn't a man, just a figment of my imagination. Hell, I shouldn't get so spooked by "his" appearances. Still I feel my heart beating violently in my chest...

2 comments:

  1. Oh my..I'm so surprised that another hallucination happened. I don't know what could trigger it..it's really unsettling, I'll have to do more research into it, he has to represent something, or someone. And Brian's drawings..the coincidence is something I can't explain but I'm so sorry you had to go through seeing him again, if only for a few moments.

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  2. Yes... it was pretty shocking for me too obviously. I don't know, it's all so strange. I forgot to tell you but we DID increase the dosage of my medicine, but it apparently doesn't seem to be helping.
    You know this all ready, but I'm really happy that you're taking the time to do research for me. The research you do isn't only helping me right now but also Brian... there must be an explanation for this coincidence.

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