Tuesday, 17 August 2010
Filling the Pages With the Breathings of My Heart
Today I went to get a notebook. I just love books of any kind (... except anything related to math) and the smell of paper is the best scent I know. Not that the pages of this book smell particularly good, actually they don't smell much at all but still. Just look at those blank pages, just waiting to be filled!
So what am I going to fill them with? My idea is that I'm going to fill it with the images I tend to see; my hallucinations isn't as frequent as they used to be but they're still far from rare, but I'm also going to fill the book with drawings of anything I see in my dreams, for dreams fascinate me much. Don't they fascinate everyone? I think it's a good idea to fill the notebook with fragments of the stories my brain writes while I'm asleep. Maybe I'll start scribbling down other things in the book too, for why should it be strictly for my dream images or any other illusions?
I hope this can somehow aid Mary in her studies too. I feel like I want to help her, and I feel bad for being extra cranky recently. Not that I know how much of use this will be for her but at least it will be a fun thing to do for me, even if my hallucinations isn't always that exciting.