Wednesday, 3 November 2010

... No more school for me

I've yet to leave my little swearing fit behind me it seems, at least not the rage I felt back then. I went to school, and they began to act strangely again (not like it surprised me), I simply couldn't take it when this guy wouldn't stop staring at me. Things happened, and I punched him quite hard, several times. He's okay, I think, though I broke his nose, and his face was rather blue... He didn't fight back at all, did nothing in order to defend himself. The only thing I remember is that he continued to say nonsensical things while I was beating him up.

Sometimes I think I'm turning into a psychopath. Why am I not able of controlling myself anymore? It's like I've grown weaker recently with how I'm incapable of suppressing my anger. My parents aren't happy over what's happened and they're deliberately avoiding me right now, they won't speak to me. I'm suspended from school for a few weeks now, I'm not sure for exactly how long. "Until I cool down", I bet.
Whenever that is.


  1. Aw, Alice...
    I...understand why you snapped. It's not something I can say is wrong, there's only so much someone can take before they have to fight back. That doesn't make what you did right, but it doesn't make how your pupils were treating you any more right.
    If one thing's for certain, I know you aren't a psychopath. I could go into long reasons why you aren't, but I'll just say it like it is. You simply aren't. There's more things that make one a psychopath than simply getting into a fight. I wish I could help you more, I really do. I can only offer advice, but I really wish I could do more. As always, if you need to talk I'm here.

  2. I know I'm not a psychopath but... I don't know, it just makes me question my sanity is all. It helps to hear you say that I'm no psychopath though.
    Really, there's... nothing I can say but thanks.

  3. Neither here nor there.

    May I ask who you are?

  4. That's Lily, my Alter. She's... No quite right in the head....