Oh god

Something just happened and-- and just trying to write this down makes me feel it all over again... I don't want to remember it, but I have to record this.

Well I... was in my room and I went to my windows in order to close the blinds and cover them with the curtains. When I did so I happened to look out the window and he stood there, the faceless man.
He was so tall, it seemed like he had grown since I saw him in the library. He stood by a tree, and for a moment there I thought that he WAS the tree. Somehow, he blended in really well with it. Even though he was still wearing his regular black suit.

I don't know. It's just a hallucination. I looked away as quickly as I could - he was staring (but how? He have no eyes) directly at me as if he was thinking about something, like he had some... intention, but of course that's not possible - and I made it so that the curtains covered the windows completely, so that nothing outside would be able to look in. But I'm on the second floor, so who could look in? That man, probably.

But it isn't a man, just a figment of my imagination. Hell, I shouldn't get so spooked by "his" appearances. Still I feel my heart beating violently in my chest...

Now, some photos

Only three actually. I failed pretty badly at finding birds that were willing to be photographed.

The first picture I managed to take was of a blackbird, which I'm proud of because they're SO skittish. We have a lot of these jumping around on our lawn.

I walked around a bit until I came to this rocky hill at the outskirts of a forest, which was when I saw a raven sit in one of the dead trees. The view from this place is pretty amazing and I think he was enjoying it as well, lol. I took a picture of him before he flew away, since I knew Mary likes them.

Then this last one, which has nothing to do with birds but I'm uploading it simply because it was more distorted compared to the two bird pictures.

Yeah, this is my house (the very top window is where my room is). I don't remember taking this picture so it's prolly my mum's doing, but when I was transferring the bird pictures to my computer this pic also transferred for some reason, and so I noticed its heavy distortion. Thought it was strange that its quality was so much more crappier than all the other pictures.

So, the other day...

I had another encounter with the tall man.

At first I didn't know what was happening. I was lying in my bed trying to get some sleep, and as always I had to toss and turn a lot before I could find the right position. But then I saw something that made me freeze. My door was closed, but out of the door opening... those small cracks... something crept into my room. I didn't know what to think about it at first. I thought it might be a spider, but it was a foolish thought since it was too big and had no body. Just long, thin, sharp "legs".
Then I thought it might just be some shadows caused by the trees outside, but my curtains were covering my windows very well so that's impossible.
It was a hallucination, or perhaps a dream or half-dream. But then why was I so afraid?

After a while it began to look more and more like a hand and it kept creeping along my walls. The fingers were like claws - or scissors. They looked that sharp. Perhaps one could say they looked like knives to, but... the way they moved...
So I tried to close my eyes, see if that'd help, sometimes it does. Sometimes it just makes things worse. Even if I close my eyes I can still hallucinate.
And when I did I saw his face again, the tall, slender man, remember? But this time it was a lot clearer. Yes, I am certain now: he had no face.

He tilted his head from one side to the other, several times, spasmodically. I opened my eyes again and everything was back to normal. But, god, I couldn't sleep after that. I'm still tired, even though I managed to get some sleep last night, and I'm afraid to fall asleep again.

But it's just a hallucination.

Mary, Mary, Quite Contrary!

Mary, I found you your theme song! ;D Wouldn't it be great if you would be allowed to play this for the kids?



In other news, I haven't been able to do much of anything recently since I've been feeling ill. Damn this cough.
But I'm feeling slightly better now and I will see if I can post something new related to the notebook soon.

The Morse Codes

Thanks to Mary, I now know that the codes I found in my notebook were Morse Code. I'm not all that savvy when it comes to things like that, but I am capable of using google and so I found a site that would translate the codes for me.

And what I found was... very, very curious, indeed.

The first code translates into; SEEYOU

What am I supposed to make out of that? It certainly seems like something one would say while sleep walking, I suppose. It doesn't make much sense.

The second batch of Morse Codes were a little different and it took me a while to translate them, mostly because I had to translate them twice. You see, the Morse Code translated into binary, which I had to translate too.

This is what it translated into; the trees

If this has been written by me (I've all ready dismissed the idea that it could've been written by anyone else in the house, which is my parents, since they're not the kind of people who would joke around like this. They're rather humourless, besides, their English isn't very good, so if they would pull a prank they would've used Swedish instead), at least 'the trees' makes a little more sense than SEEYOU. I've been thinking about going out to take some pictures, preferably of some birds if I can, but I haven't been able to do so yet, so it could be referring to that.

Anyway, I will take this as a sign from my subconscious and get my hands on the family's digital camera as soon as I can. =P

How Strange

I sat by my desk doing nothing in particular when I began to fiddle with the pages of my notebook, and then I noticed something strange. I haven't had any experiences worth recording for quite a while now but... I did find something interesting in my notebook. I have no idea where it came from. Could I have written this down myself, while being in a half-awake state of mind?

I'm not sure what these are. They seem familiar somehow, some sort of code I suppose? I have no idea what it's called though (Mary, help me!), I can feel it at the tip of my tongue. But I think this looks way too neat to have been written by me while sleepwalking. Then again, what do I know.

As far as I can tell, the dots and lines at the top are; ... . . -.-- --- ..-

While the rest is;
----- .---- .---- .---- ----- .---- ----- -----
----- .---- .---- ----- .---- ----- ----- -----
----- .---- .---- ----- ----- .---- ----- .----
----- ----- .---- ----- ----- ----- ----- -----
----- .---- .---- .---- ----- .---- ----- -----
----- .---- .---- .---- ----- ----- .---- -----
----- .---- .---- ----- ----- .---- ----- .----
----- .---- .---- ----- ----- .---- ----- .----
----- .---- .---- .---- ----- ----- .---- .----

I hope I got to write them all down properly. I'm not sure what to say about this; does it mean my so-called condition is getting worse...?